Entahlah, mungkin ini absurd dan gak bisa dimengerti.

Seperti biasa gue selalu punya keahlian untuk lari dari tanggung jawab. Yah, seharusnya gue nyelesaiin proposal untuk kunjungan lapangan malem ini. Tapi gue terlalu lelah setelah beberapa saat tidak dihiraukan di grup dengan teman-teman. Dasar emang gue yang gak sabar aja kali ah *maapiiinnn*

Dan gue capek untuk gangguin hesti, intan, anggi, yang lagi-lagi sibuk dengan tugas mereka seperti malam-malam sebelum-belumnya. Jadilah gue gaje, mantengin youtube sampe akhirnya bosen, berusaha balik ke proposal tapi kemudian usaha itu gagal. Ya sudah, pasrah. Apa lagi yang bisa menghibur hati gue selain buka aplikasi pemutar musik, pasang earphone dan kemudian memejamkan mata.

Tanpa bermaksud apa-apa tombol shuffle yang gue tekan membawa gue pada suara Adam Levine yang juara dalam urusan bikin klepek-klepek hati wanita. Terputarlah "Maps". IYA, MAPS FROM MAROON 5. Dan seketika hasrat untuk posting listening to di path muncul. Waktu mau ngisi caption, gue sempet merenung sejenak. Kemudian dorongan untuk (berlagak) galau itu muncul.

Sambil dengerin beberapa lagu setelahnya, gue berhasil nyelesaiin laporan kunlap adm rumah sakit, tinggal edit-edit. Dilanjut besok aja. Tapi kemudian gue berhasrat memperpanjang kegalauan dan kemudian gue nulis ini... absurd sekali *maapiiinnn*

You can blame me and the thing I wrote, but for this one just let me make an excuse. While you read it and think this is suck, just remember that this is inspired by one of the best Maroon 5's song. And after that what you need is to capture Mr. Levine's face in your mind. I'm not begging you but please....

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Oh baby, maybe we got lost onto another days where we felt completely happy to be free. But then now, I think of something I missed. I’m not sure what it is, the option are between you and the conversation we had in the past.

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I felt into memories while we both smile after staring in silince for some minutes. I’m sure I’m totally crazy when I’m sure your voice whispered in my ear. You called me. No, that’s delution.

But from second to another minutes, all inside my head was you. It’s not only about you face, your smile... but it grew into scenes. Yeah, moving pictures. Our pictures, our scenes.

One of them shown me while we laugh. Another shown me about our fight. And another one shown me while we sing. But the weird is, from all those scenes I couldn’t hear your voice, and also mine. Its like a playback of old video in mute mode.

I’m ran away, tried to find back your voice, filled every scenes with phrases from our conversation. But I got lost. Found there’s nothing except some quite memories.

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Here, I really miss to talk to you, even talk might be scream or fight. Now that I know is, what I really wanted is to repeat our conversations. I don’t mind if the subject is you or other, but I want the exactly same conversation. Because from that conversation I got what I want; fight, jokes, compliment, relationship, feeling. From that conversation something growing inside my heart, even now after we stop to talk cause we’re apart, I’m still trembelling sometimes while a familiar conversation leads me into our memories.

 

Hi, I'm in the half way to losing my sane but I found a bottle of coffe. Finally, after been apart for almost a month with caffein, I got it tonight! And caffein always help me to get excited, so now I'm very-mega-excited!

Tomorrow I'm going to face the first ever quiz for this semester. Yeah, quiz. And as always, when exam or quiz or whatever it is come, I'm always busy to kicking out my responsibilities to be such a good student and daughter. Yes, forget about all those subject! Lets get some of fun!

Then I remember, I wrote something in the last page of my notebook in the middle of class. The very first bucket of un-important words and phares on my new notebook. FYI, my brother bet me about how many pages that will be wasted by those damn f*c*ing words in this semester. Its good to say that I began did it a bit late, so maybe I couldn't win but not lose really that far.

So, this 'thing' now inspire by the quote in the front cover of the notebook itself that say "In this peacefultime, I say your name, the wind answer and smile"

Pretty nice. Then its turn my mind and I just drown into this....

In this peacefultime, I say your name and think...

Thinking about your smile, how that smile captured my heart.

Thinking about your eyes, how those eyes daze and stare.

Thinking about your voice, how warm and nice while welcoming people.

Thinking about your laugh, how it can turn my mood into best at the time.

 

Thinking about our conversation, our jokes.

Thinking about every skinships that turn my heart into beat.

Thinking about the day when we started our met.

Thing about our very first chat.

 

Thinking about the first time I felt something missed.

Thinking about you.

Missing you.

Waiting you.

 

Now I know, all of those thoughts are yours.

Like it always.

'Cause actually, there's nothing except you.

Yeah, you.

 

Pssstt, I'm so sorry if my vocab, grammar, structure or what still pretty bad. I'm not master anyway *aku mah apa atuh kan ya?*

But lately, I'm feeling more comfotable to write everything in english. First, to improving my skill. Second, to show up. Hahaha, the second one is joke.

But you still get it right? Yes, you got my heart!

Night!!!