Hurt in the beginning of November

Hai November! Welcome the new hurt :'}
It's the first day of November and I got hurt. I think my november wishes about you will be change since now. I need to stop although I though I never walk on, but of course I did. I walked on my dream and though about so many beautiful things about us and now I fall. Is it hurt? Is it really hurt?
Imagine about something beautiful then you can't rais those beautiful things it will be hurt you anymore than you was raised thos:'e things and you lost it. I never planned I'm going to got this hurt in the way when I try to smile again. I just going to sing enchanted song for you but it will be teardrops on my guitar as soon as possible. Why I should be like this? Why I should to know about it now? Why you give me the reason to falling down to you? Why it's over when I though this is just already begun? Why why why? Why I need to got back this hurt? Why I should tell a bad story again about my love story? Is it a happy ending just come in the story? Why I should though it'll be like a fairytale concept? Why life is never fair to me? Why I should asking why to the world?
You need it to know it but I would never had a chance to tell you about it because it's just over since now, since I knew you are not belong to me! How could I tell you about this one thing even when you saw me it's not like the real you saw me?! I need to speak up now but I'm sure no body has not respect about it!!!
Angry then give up.....
You know how much pain I got when I though I should to give up on you?!
This is the begin of November and I got hurt because of you!!!
I want to tell the world that I hate you but I can't.
Poor my november :'(