RIP DA :")

Lo emang jahat, Dur. Sumpah jahat banget... Kenapa lo gak pernah jujur, gak pernah buka cerita soal hidup lo yang sebenernya sejak dulu? Kenapa lo biarin gue jadi yang paling gak tahu? Kenapa lo biarin gue jadi orang bego kayak begini?

Gue ngerasa tolol banget, lo dan dunia seolah udah bikin kesepakatan untuk ngebiarin gue berada di posisi yang paling tolol sejak dulu sampe detik ini.

Kenapa gue harus tau sekarang?

Kenapa gue harus tau dari orang lain?

Kenapa gue harus ngerti diakhir?

RIP Dandi Arlansyah on January 6th, 2014.

Maaf, Kak gue gak pernah tau lo itu siapa. Mungkin dulu gue pernah secara sengaja atau gak bersikap gak sopan dan ngebuat lo kurang berkenan. Gue minta maaf ya, Kak, kalo aja orang jahat itu ngasih tau gue siapa lo itu sebenernya, mungkin gue bisa bersikap lebih baik.

Entah bisa disebut perkenalan atau gak, well itu absurd. Tapi yang jelas, Kak, semoga lo tenang di sana ya. Semoga lo dapet tempat yang paling baik dan mulia, semoga semua amal dan ibadah lo diterima oleh Allah SWT. Amin :')

Yang jelas, semoga ini jadi pelajaran paling berharga buat orang jahat itu untuk bisa bersikap lebih baik dalam ngejalanin hidup.

Bless you, Kak :')

Now...

Dur, are you alright there? It must shocking you, isn't it?

I hope you just fine there. Stay strong, boss!

There's so many things I want to say and I hope you know and learn it directly, but I know it didn't allowed. So here I am, talking like a crazy to the screen, just to make my self better. I hope you also get better...

I'm here as a friend, not as someone who still loving you. Keep calm, I don't even think to start over again to fall on you.

Gue hanya turut berduka cita, Dur. Sumpah kejadiannya terlalu tragis untuk ngebuat gue bisa ngerasa biasa aja. Life's getting harder, Dur, I know.

If you know that I am truly sorry to hear that, I want to try to comforting you although I know it may makes a new issue. But I know you just can't be alone right now. So I want to so damn much be there, beside you and also hope SHE's always there for you. I hope she's there not just for now, but before and after it.

What I try to say is I hope she's good enough to stay beside you when the sad and happiness comes, when the dark and shining world changes. I just hope for the best for you...

I'm so sorry about your brother. May Allah give a best place for him. Stay strong, Dur, for you and family.

 

Your (maybe) friend.

Nofita Chandra