My 21!!!

Ternyata benar, sometimes Allah memberikan apa yang gue butuh bukan apa yang gue pingin.

Since a long time ago, gue pingin banget punya kakak yang bisa jadi tempat sampah semua keluhan gue, yang gak jutek kalo gue lagi cerita, yang bikin gue ngakak, ngata-ngatain gue seenak jidat tapi gak pernah lupa perhatian, yang bisa dimintain tolong, yang kalo ngongek nyakitin hati gak ketolongan, tapi selalu mau jadi tempat gue bersandar, bisa gue marahin sampe keluar semua sumpah serapah, yang kalo ada apa-apa gak segen buat cerita dan minta tolong, tempat ngerengek sesuka hati, yang bisa digangguin sekaligus marahin gue kapan aja.

Kikio gak gitu. Akur adalah sebuah kata yang asing untuk menggambarkan kita berdua. But then since like 6 or more years ago I got Danu. The one who called me Dek from the first until death, the one who not really know me but always mean to me. And today, when I woke up and officially turn into 21, I got a text from him that congratulated me, saying happy birth day and give a not-so-long prayer as a gift. He successfully made my cry like baby :”)

My expectation are too big that I got a thousand dollars on my bank account or new car as a gift from my parent or maybe new laptop, you know. But then I got surprised when I check all of my social media account, guess who’s there! Them, who not really close to me, who for so long have no chit and chat with me. They are sending me a short phares, saying happy birth day to me. And of course Putri and Reni as always know how to make me can’t stop smiling. A cake, ballons and photos are too much for someone who love to share things with nobody like me. Sangat kekinian 21 tahun gue karena mereka, lengkap dengan balon huruf-huruf yang hits itu.

And when I hope for a special dinner with my family or maybe go out for some fresh air together, I got here stuck in my bedroom by myself. Its not like they are not care about me, but a kiss on the forehead and a longlist wishes in every praying are more than just enough for me. Yes, a simple gift from mom and dad, the gift that they gives to me every second of their life.

And Dear Allah SWT, please let me be stronger than before, You know what I want, You know I need to be stronger to get it. I'm going to stop asking for easier life and promise You to ask for a stronger me. From now on, I'm not a crying baby anymore. Just let me be...

 

Thank God to let me know that life is really that simple. Thank to let me turn into 21 today. Thank you for all happiness and lessons, all those laughs and tears. Thank you to sent me such a great person like them. Thank you to let me be a part of their life. Thank you for fresh air and time when I still can breathing. Thank you....

I’m so blessed so let me a blessing for them. Amin.

Sincerely

Nofita Chandra who turn into 21 on July 9, 2015.